this blog means nothing.. jus had to say things out, so did..
sometimes u say u hate someone, but behind their back u keep a track of all their moves.. actually wondering if they are ok or not, like everything they do or don't matters so much to you! even though there may not be much left of it, but deep down u wish things could come together.. yet if u cross that person down the street u pretend to ignore them. is this ego, or maybe u want the other person to know how it feels to be ignored, or are u trying to show them u didn't notice n dun care! well somewhere it becomes more like convincing urself that u dont! feels wierd but then its true! i know we are not supposed to be friends, maybe ur made of everything i am not.. i know everyone says ur bad n i know that too.. but then its a lil hard to convince ur own self.. to say that it was all made up n nothing was genuine.. maybe i am holding back, maybe i am not letting go.. and even though i may say i don't care n it doesn't affect me n i am being practical n all that crap.. but deep down it still effects me! i know it shouldn't! its like i know everything but still why is it so hard to forget the past n accept the truth.. getting over things are important.. n the way i can see the correct things yet i am not letting go, i am the one who is getting hurt.