last nite me, jini n deba were at the terrace pretty late discussin bout things that really matter. for once, after a long long really long time i actually felt like interacting sensibly n not ur baseless bitching bout people. the way deba says the world really needs cleansing. all the while we've heard of a messiah comin down but u dun know for sure if these are true. but me n jini felt there is still a lot more to come. its like the pot is not yelled filled to the brim. there's a lot of worse that still has to come. one day, maybe humans will kill each other for power n there will be nothing left. life comes a full circle. again people will return to civilisation. maybe someday they will rise above everything else. thats how we say kalyug ends n styug begins again.
they say instincts.. how do u actually define it. we live in this society bound by rules set up by some mindfucked poeple. u wake up, u survive n u go to bed. its all mechanical. deba was talkin bout this poem, its so wonderful. it goes like
7.00am : wake up
9.00am: reach office
12.30pm: lunch
5.00pm : go home
8.00pm : dinner
10.00pm : sleep

now, either u can decide to wake up one day n say u wont follow a shit of it n not go to work, eat if u feel like, sleep if u may n so on..
in that case, the society wont accept u.. so u have two way with u, wither u end ur life or go back to the same set of rules. period.
thats how pathetic we are. wonder at times who are we, what are we. are we part of some big experiment that someone above is conducting on us. like we are all variables in an equation. he adds human to see how it affects the world, n he draws another human to see how it hurts us. what does he deduce from it? if people jus have to die cos GOD needs them,. why not now,. why are they born in the first place then. is it fair to die at the prime of ur youth at 21?? damn it! if u die at 70 with a life well lived it is understandable.. and what bout people u leave behind? who plays with us! if we are part of this game we are supposed to know all the set of rules.. but no one does! in such a perfect creation, there has to be a flaw. n there is, what we call paranormal. when there is some connection between the two world, maybe then the flaw comes into existence. if we cud anipulate the flaw a bit n learn the truth. cud spirits be movin around as n when they feel like. cud they be jus next to u. its mind freakin! this instinct thing is so fascinating. like when u choose to walk the edge of the terrace. what makes u do that. that is ur bare essential instinct. maybe at that one moment u are actually living n all other days are jus playin the rules. change is essential, really. i cud jus go on about topics like death n lif before n beyond. maybe at this moment i'm being a complete hypocrite n this is a way of escapin from reality. but then, is reality real?